Monday, July 30, 2012

Strange Mood, Strange Oasis

I didn't notice until just a second ago, but this painting seems to fit my mood perfectly at the moment. Its titled Strange Oasis, and so it is painting number 7 in my calendar series. Right now, I reeeeeally reeeeally wish I had a scanner big enough to scan these all in, it is no fun trying to take pictures because some parts always get cropped off and the colors and lighting all have to be adjusted with gimp, which is difficult.
So I started and finished this up this morning. I guess this is my way of trying to relax. I don't know if I've succeeded. I feel really mellow. I need a vacation.

Saturday, July 28, 2012


Okay.... so, this should be the end of my venting for awhile (hopefully). So what has been going on in Munster's world? Well, I don't quite know why but I've been the most exhausted person as of late. It started sometime last week, and then I got yelled at (in quite an upsetting and unprofessional manner) at work by a doctor, which made me feel like a big pile of shit almost all week. I'm not a person that needs to be yelled at to get the point across, I'm very self-correcting so it really affected me more than it should have. And I was never apologized to. On top of that, I haven't been able to see Doom much, and life in general has just been blech. When I came back to work yesterday things were kinda shitty still, and then they were shitty all day today until the head-tech talked to me and my coworker about the 'incident'(aka trouble) last week which ended up making me feel 100% better. I was able to get almost everything off my chest (I had a headache and was feeling emotional so I tried to cut things short so I didn't cry or just lost my cool in general). Basically the head-tech let me know in her tough-love kind of way that she and the head-doctor are the only ones that matter and we let her know our side of the story. So I've learned some things about the veterinary profession, which is good because that IS the point of a pre-veterinary student working in an animal hospital, eh?
One big thing that I learned is this: Doctors and other employees are not always nice or professional. Keep your head down and move on. (also, I will never treat anyone, especially when I become a doctor, the way I was treated that day. I've also learned that perhaps small-animal medicine isn't for me, and its a good thing there are many options in the veterinary world! 
Outside of work, school has been frustrating me, I understand physics a lot more than other people but I can't seem to break out of the B range. Whoa is me. Tomorrow is another day. I'm tired of ranting now, I'm gonna go relax and eat dinner and cuddle with my doggies.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

I'm a bookwyrm

I love 'em. I've always loved to read. I thought I would be an author until I was about 14 or 15. But I don't get to read enough with the price of books and the lack of time (I keep meaning to get a library card... hmm, I should do that). But anyhoo, I recently read Relic by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child. Good read! I thoroughly enjoyed it and I surprised myself by getting spooked by the setting and the terrifying creature! But more than anything it made me want to visit a museum and do other fun things that people with money and time are able to do. *sigh* Someday! But right now Doom & I are tight on money so we have to be some kind of conservative with our funds til things become steady.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Sketch of the day

Rabbits fascinate me. I want to adopt a pet rabbit SO BAD. Even though Doom wants a kitten, I think I'd rather have a rabbit. I mean, THEY EAT CARROTS. How adorable! I had a rabbit years ago... I know that will be my next pet.
Even better would be if I could get a jackalope ;) but that dream will have to be filed away in my brain along with unicorns and dragons...

Sunday, July 22, 2012

The rhinoceros on my chest

Warning: pure venting! Read at your own peril.
I am worth something, I will get somewhere. My future is now, and no matter how dark 'now' is, the light of 'later' is so bright, I must know I'm never in darkness. So 3 waves crashed over me, leaving me feeling self-loathing, depression and self-doubt. I still know I will make it. I didn't choose this path because it was easy, I chose it because it is what I'm passionate about. So FUCK  YOU world, fuck you. I am not ashamed of my ambition, or my short-comings, or my stumbles.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will hold what I have dear, and march onward into my life-long journey of learning, jumping, climbing and crawling my way to the top.

Saturday, July 21, 2012


Painting number 6! A snow leopard. I enjoyed this one, although it didn't quite come out the way I envisioned, but when do they ever do? :P So now I know big cats can be fun to paint!
I don't have much else to share, except that I'm sleep deprived. -_-'

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Bad munster, bad!


Re-painted rhino
I'm horrible, instead of studying today I became obsessed with 'fixing' my first rhino painting, and I have wasted a whole afternoon on it... Well, I do like the second one better at least. Except for the grass... ugh. I need masking fluid. I had a bad experience with it but I think its worth another try.
I need to wind down, I was waaaay too obsessive about this. Munster out!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Roaring Lights

Presenting painting #5 of my calendar series. The rhino was harder to shade than I had anticipated, but the background went well until I used some shitty white acrylic paint that needs to be tossed because it is clumpy as hell. Ah well, trial & error, that's the way of life! So, here's the running tally on my project so far:
  1. Barn Owl & forest (complete!)
  2. Crow & forest (complete!)
  3. Foxes & wintery forest (complete!)
  4. Bison & Badlands (complete!)
  5. Rhino & Thunderstorm (complete!)
  6. Hare & Desert
Now, I can't guarantee that I'll finish 12 paintings in time, so I might have to reuse a couple pre-calendar watercolors that I made, however, the concepts for the rest of them are as follows: 
  • Pangolin? Clouded leopard? Snow Leopard? Guanaco? Tapir? Panda? Bat? Kudu? Rat?(depends on if I find a decent ref + setting) I definitely want to do a night-time/starry scene, but now sure with which animal yet.
Well, I shall keep on with this project, but I must say things aren't going too well for me on the physics front. Let's just say I need to re-evaluate my study habits or I'll get stuck in the same rut as last term.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012


I am not shitting you when I say it's HOT in the desert. >_<' Its hot in the shade, its SIMMERING at midday when I have to walk around campus to get to my class, crossing campus feels like walking across the surface of the sun.
At least its a dry heat. o_0
I miss winter...

Saturday, July 7, 2012


So I'm disappointed with my self... I got a B in physics 1. I know, I know, many people would be jumping for joy at this but I honestly thought I did better than that. I do get that "are you kidding me?" look a lot when I talk about grades, but I am GROOMED for this. Vet schools are competitive, and have forced me to be a bit of a 'grade-grubber'. Trust me, I wasn't like this in high school. So now I have to look back and see what I've been doing and what I can change. I'd like to think I'm little-miss-perfect-student, however, I can look back at the past 5 weeks though and say that I did NOT put in my 100%. Sure, I woke up early and studied, but I know I'd get distracted and not pay attention. I started to slack off, especially in the afternoons. I really should be covering the material at least twice before a test, but instead I'd just try to sweep over it quickly. I need to stop looking at everyone else, I need to start looking at myself and what I need to be doing. So what's so bad about a B? Aside from the fact that my teacher made it sound like I'd get a B+ atleast (way to get my hopes up, dude) a B doesn't help my GPA, because a B is just a 3.0, and I need to start creeping higher towards the 3.5 range if I want to be competitive. So this is a mini-rant. If you don't see me much in the next 5 weeks, be glad for me, because hopefully I'll be studying instead of derping around, watching my potential blow away in the hot, desert wind.

Friday, July 6, 2012

Badlands and the end of Physics 1!

Aaaah, what to say, what to say? Well, the rest of my 4th of July was disappointing because my dog chewed up my paycheck! But I shall refrain from ranting because it ended up being alright in the end and I was able to get it deposited. But now for the school news: I am finished with part 1 of physics! I don't know my grade yet, I'm on the border line so I have to wait til grades are posted to be sure. I'm ready for physics part 2, hopefully I will be able to pull myself ahead and not be on the borderline. Wish me luck!
Random news: money is tight right now for me and Doom, although I don't have bills to pay we both make an effort to save up for my veterinary school coming up soon/eventually (Doom is very sweet and supportive and I love him for it!) however our savings have diminished because of Doom's bills and other financial issues lately. *sigh* growing up is hard and I definitely appreciate being able to live with my parents... Hopefully Doom can start his new job soon and we can get back on our feet!
Aaaaand finally, I finished another calendar painting, a bison. :) I have a spot in my heart for the midwest, so I enjoyed this painting, although the background is vexing me right now. Not sure If I'll go back a 3rd time and try to fix it, but here it is as of now:
Now I'm gonna act like a "grandma"(as my friends like to say) and go to bed now. I don't care that it's 8pm, I'm tired, dammit!
Also: Yay for my friend Blogadog on her big move to another state all on her own! I'm so proud of her.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Independence Morning with the dogs

Even though my bladder woke me up, I'm still glad it wasn't my alarm clock! I'm working on my physics homework today, and I have to study for my lab exam tomorrow, but I'm glad I didn't have to go to class. And if I finish my studying done soon, I can start my bison painting! :) Here are some pictures of my relaxing morning with my pups:
This is usually Ti's opinion of Feivel.

He gives such sweet kisses. :]



A welcome sight in the desert! I'm so SICK of SUNSHINE.
He's a great listener.

Sunday, July 1, 2012


Painting number 3 of my calendar series, foxes in snow! I was excited to paint it, but really it just reminded me of how much landscapes kick my ass. This wasn't even my first attempt, I had to scrap my first attempt and start over. So this is what I ended up with... I'm not sure how much I like it, those snow-covered boughs were hard! We shall see if it grows on me. Maybe I'll pick a less landscape intensive piece next!

Patterns & Routines

Well I've gotten used to the ever-tiring game of school, exam, work, lather, rinse, repeat. School seems to be good, on all of the 4 exams I've taken so far my scores haven't deviated beyond 3 points! So, I'm consistent, and my scores aren't too bad... but I'm on the borderline and so I'm gonna have to try hard this week... But I am glad that I finally got to start a painting yesterday after work, that hopefully I will finish tonight! But, to tide you over in the mean time, here's some cute puppies and kitties! [I wish I could take a kitty home... but my life is complicated enough without another little critter!]