Strange Mood, Strange Oasis

I didn't notice until just a second ago, but this painting seems to fit my mood perfectly at the moment. Its titled Strange Oasis, and so it is painting number 7 in my calendar series. Right now, I reeeeeally reeeeally wish I had a scanner big enough to scan these all in, it is no fun trying to take pictures because some parts always get cropped off and the colors and lighting all have to be adjusted with gimp, which is difficult.
So I started and finished this up this morning. I guess this is my way of trying to relax. I don't know if I've succeeded. I feel really mellow. I need a vacation.

Breeatheee

Okay.... so, this should be the end of my venting for awhile (hopefully). So what has been going on in Munster's world? Well, I don't quite know why but I've been the most exhausted person as of late. It started sometime last week, and then I got yelled at (in quite an upsetting and unprofessional manner) at work by a doctor, which made me feel like a big pile of shit almost all week. I'm not a person that needs to be yelled at to get the point across, I'm very self-correcting so it really affected me more than it should have. And I was never apologized to. On top of that, I haven't been able to see Doom much, and life in general has just been blech. When I came back to work yesterday things were kinda shitty still, and then they were shitty all day today until the head-tech talked to me and my coworker about the 'incident'(aka trouble) last week which ended up making me feel 100% better. I was able to get almost everything off my chest (I had a headache and was feeling emotional so I tried to cut things short so I didn't cry or just lost my cool in general). Basically the head-tech let me know in her tough-love kind of way that she and the head-doctor are the only ones that matter and we let her know our side of the story. So I've learned some things about the veterinary profession, which is good because that IS the point of a pre-veterinary student working in an animal hospital, eh?
One big thing that I learned is this: Doctors and other employees are not always nice or professional. Keep your head down and move on. (also, I will never treat anyone, especially when I become a doctor, the way I was treated that day. I've also learned that perhaps small-animal medicine isn't for me, and its a good thing there are many options in the veterinary world! 
Outside of work, school has been frustrating me, I understand physics a lot more than other people but I can't seem to break out of the B range. Whoa is me. Tomorrow is another day. I'm tired of ranting now, I'm gonna go relax and eat dinner and cuddle with my doggies.

I'm a bookwyrm

I love 'em. I've always loved to read. I thought I would be an author until I was about 14 or 15. But I don't get to read enough with the price of books and the lack of time (I keep meaning to get a library card... hmm, I should do that). But anyhoo, I recently read Relic by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child. Good read! I thoroughly enjoyed it and I surprised myself by getting spooked by the setting and the terrifying creature! But more than anything it made me want to visit a museum and do other fun things that people with money and time are able to do. *sigh* Someday! But right now Doom & I are tight on money so we have to be some kind of conservative with our funds til things become steady.

Sketch of the day

Rabbits fascinate me. I want to adopt a pet rabbit SO BAD. Even though Doom wants a kitten, I think I'd rather have a rabbit. I mean, THEY EAT CARROTS. How adorable! I had a rabbit years ago... I know that will be my next pet.
Even better would be if I could get a jackalope ;) but that dream will have to be filed away in my brain along with unicorns and dragons...

The rhinoceros on my chest

Warning: pure venting! Read at your own peril.
I am worth something, I will get somewhere. My future is now, and no matter how dark 'now' is, the light of 'later' is so bright, I must know I'm never in darkness. So 3 waves crashed over me, leaving me feeling self-loathing, depression and self-doubt. I still know I will make it. I didn't choose this path because it was easy, I chose it because it is what I'm passionate about. So FUCK  YOU world, fuck you. I am not ashamed of my ambition, or my short-comings, or my stumbles.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will hold what I have dear, and march onward into my life-long journey of learning, jumping, climbing and crawling my way to the top.

Patience

Painting number 6! A snow leopard. I enjoyed this one, although it didn't quite come out the way I envisioned, but when do they ever do? :P So now I know big cats can be fun to paint!
I don't have much else to share, except that I'm sleep deprived. -_-'

Bad munster, bad!

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Re-painted rhino

I'm horrible, instead of studying today I became obsessed with 'fixing' my first rhino painting, and I have wasted a whole afternoon on it... Well, I do like the second one better at least. Except for the grass... ugh. I need masking fluid. I had a bad experience with it but I think its worth another try.
I need to wind down, I was waaaay too obsessive about this. Munster out!